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The Cry of a Loner
I don't need any false pity. I don't need any deceiving comforting words.
I just need to be with myself, because that's the only way I can truly be happy.
Perhaps, that's the best, though I have never wanted to hurt anybody.
I kept quiet, like a silent night, each time they hurt me. And laugh at their stupid joke as if I don't really care.
But couldn't they see? How hurt it is?
Didn't they realize the tear in my eyes?
How many times have it been since I keep holding my tears? I cannot count.
Perhaps, my mind simply erase it so it can stop hurting me.
But enough is enough. I am tired of being treated like shit.
What did i do to deserve it?
Yes, I don't care what people think of me, but don't I have feelings too?
They hurt me again today, and my tears just couldn't stop.
They didn't see it coming because they are blinded by their selfishness.
The only thing they see, is a little girl with a stone face, staring into the sky of nothingness.
But I cannot hold my tears anymore. The dam is broken.
Just like how my heart has been broken a lot of time before.
I don't expect them to understand me.
But I expect them to at least show some respect. Is that so hard to do?
Am I asking for the impossible here?
Did I ever hurt their feelings that they need to treat me like this?
I'm smart, so they use me when they need to. They put sugary smile and utter sugary words.
My heart was soften, for the sake of friends.
But when they don't need me anymore, they just throw me away.
They laugh and make fun of me like I am just a statue without a heart.
Don't like deserve to be angry?
Don't I deserve to feel dejected?
Don't I deserve to cry?
After these years, I thought my tears have gone dry. I thought there's nothing more to shed.
I conceal myself behind towers of books and inanimate object. They never betray me like human does.
They always be by my side and keep me company.
From high school till now, I have build up an armor. Build up a wall so nobody can hurt my scarred heart.
But after coming here, I have changed. I have started socializing again, slowly breaking out of my shell. I hope for a better chance. A chance to be understood.
But who am I to deserve this? I am just a nobody.
I found my peace in the dark, under the shade of my shell.
I found my happiness with books that never betray or lied to me. Never to take advantage of me.
But always there to accompany me. Always by my side to offer me a kind of adventure.
A decision to step out of my shell slaps me in the face.
This is what I get, for betraying myself.
A person like me, a person who can never be understood even by my own close friends.
A person who only meant to be alone.
Meant to be misunderstood.
Meant to get hurt and meant only to live in my own comfort shell.
A loner, I am. And a loner I will always be.
But always, deep inside of me, there is a kind of hope, a kind of desperate plea.
A plea that perhaps somebody out there understand me.
I want to meet this person so badly that sometimes my mind deny itself.
No matter how many times I have been betrayed that my hope crushed to thousand of broken glasses, I keep picking the pieces by myself, ignoring the cut I got on my fingers and fix everything back together again.
Though it is not perfect anymore, and never will be, but that hope stays on.
I am desperate.
Is there any place in this world where I can live happily?
Is there any place in this world where I can enjoy myself?
Is there any place in this world where I will never get hurt?
Please tell me. Somebody, anybody....
Just call out my name and say that there's hope. That such place exist.
Please....
Wiping my tears,
Pararae
DATE:Monday, November 19, 2012
TIME:{2:32 AM }
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